my mum booked the tickets to canada. we’re leaving on the twentieth of december. which means i don’t get to celebrate x’mas in singapore. for some reason i don’t feel really happy. should i ask him to go also? means i don’t get to spend x’mas before he gets into army. i don’t know what i should do. i don’t want to spend my time in canada sulking, spend my x’mas apart from him and sulking even more. i’m damn clingy, can’t stand myself but i really don’t know what to do. should i just don’t go. but can see cute angmoh children so adorable and never seen before cousins and relatives haha.

ps i’m quite screwed for prelims. how to prelims still fail? it’s ok i will continue to work hard until i see the fruit of my labour. i don’t believe sacrificing every single day of my holidays finding some good place to study and maintaining concentration, carrying my heavy bags (that usually includes me overestimating my ability to study), all my headaches after studying for some time and all the lingering formulae and information in my head while sleeping boils down to me getting Us. Please let me learn something from my two years in a jc. If not, i’m just going to condemn myself for the rest of my life and label myself as stupid, can’t study, study also no results. I just need to do well for A lvls, i don’t care if prelims don’t do well. Just A lvls, just a lvls. Fingers x-ed. 

My ripcurl bag is spoilt. I bought it just this year (or late last year) This spells how much info i carry in my bag for a prolonged period of time. Hardworkinggurl91 please hahaha! I ought to reward myself. After A’s, i’m going to lead a very happening life haha.