we all have friends that we trust, people that we hate. people that we find tension when walking past the corridor. in every friendship, there are bound to be loop holes i guess. things you’d never be able to say because it’s too sensitive to talk about it. things that will hurt one party and things start to get ugly. maybe we all talk about people because it’s a safety net, so that we’ll not be the victim. i’ve lost some friends along the way, worthy to be lost maybe. gained a few along the way, worthy to be gained, in one way or another. but even the closest relationship with a dear friend can prove to be so fragile. the ones who hurt us the most usually comes from those who mean the most to us. i truly believe this i guess cause they matter? true friends stick to each other in the end, true friends talk about differences, discontentment, kiss and make up. ask me how many true friends i have, i can only count with my left hand.

you know it in your heart if you’ve bitched about someone deep down in your heart. and you can find it somewhere in your guts, the dislike you can find even in your closest friend. but it looks like i need to learn that, ultimately, we CAN seal up that dislike if we’d stop friggin thinking about it and being more optimistic. 

omg such a philosophical post. i can point to you exactly the flaws of the friendships with my friends. but i choose to remain friends with them. deep down in your heart, have you ever disliked anyone? hahaha i know a few who do dislike me or talk about me and act super nonchalant, as if my good friend kind. you know who you are, needless to say. i know who you are too. so really, if you ask me, i can tell you who are the friends i treasure.

jobel thanks for sticking up for me everytime some random stranger like to tell you about me sia. many times already but you just keep helping me. your black heart therein lies a white halo hahahahahh. and stop saying that boyfriend > friend for 6 years leh will hurt sia. and you just keep ponning sch ylykdat!! last time we quarrel so many times, like a fun wor! but just don’t keep reminding me because omg last time the fault like usually mine. love you i never love you before hahah.

jasmine thanks for taking my nonsense sia you are one ultimate joker. got disgusting thing on my hair also you dare to remove for me, if i’m you i just won’t!!! hahahah maybe we’re more matured already so hardly quarrel altho sometimes also will have unspoken tension. but i treasure you as a friend sia you have proven time and again to be the angel sent from heaven to come and help me tackle all the shit life throws at me. you d bezz.

i got affinity with people whose name starts with j. & how come every school i go i only choose to make one true friend. these two are the top of the list, everyone else, you just come so close to knowing. but really, i am the most irritating friend you can make friends with hahahha.

today i got to clear up some misunderstandings with a friend of mine. not exactly a very very very good friend but still someone i treasure nontheless. i’m glad we cleared things up, told each other the truth (altho still got abit haha) and moved on as per normal.

all in all, my day was stressful > unhappy > happy.