stupid gp tomorrow, i cannot take it. i am not liking the stress at all and even though i read essays, i still feel really unprepared.

i am at an all time low. maybe it’s time that i start to let loose on my blog and type things that has been bothering me for quite some time now. i feel damn lousy. like damn damn damn lousy. i really don’t know if this is what i deserve. and i constantly think to myself: was it something i did wrong? or was it something i didn’t do? is anything wrong with me? this sucks ok, the feeling sucks. and i thought for the past one month i was over it. like really seriously over it. i really was. but why the hell did it come back. what did i do, i really can’t take it anymore. i’m just really restricted with what i’m typing but aiya.

i really feel damn low, and i really think… nobody can help me out of this. i need to help myself. now i need to start from scratch again. feels like i just lost something really really really important in my life.